It was a perfect evening. The cool sea breeze and the enchanting city lights created the magical setting to mark the near completion of one year away from home. After getting over with work in the evening, I decided to spend some lone time soaking in the spirit of the city. I glided through the labyrinth of towering skyscrapers while humming the lyrics of Alicia Keys’ New York. I ordered a takeaway meal at McDonald’s and comfortably sat at a place for the next 2 hours where I could gaze at the beautiful skyline.
As I took a bite of the burger and submerged myself in the lyrics (these streets will make you feel brand new, big lights will inspire you), I began to reminisce the days when I was so resistant to move to a new city. And today after one year, I thanked God for giving me the courage to take a leap of faith. I could have never understood the importance of discovering myself in the winds of change had it not been to this enriching year.
As a growing up teenager, I had always romanticized an independent life- earning a livelihood, taking care of self and loved ones, and living to my decisions. In short, I always yearned to be an adult. But all these years, I still behaved like a child trapped in a grown up’s body, pampered by family and friends. However, today I feel like an adult who has learnt to gracefully live in uncertainty with head held up high. Though I am living a life I always wanted and I am happy with it but sometimes I tend to miss the warmth of family and friends! Maybe, I was a bird trying to fly while staying in the nest. But as it is said, you can’t have the cake and keep it too. So I have learnt to eat my cake and live in the moment of experiencing its sweetness not thinking what will happen if I finish it.
Maybe some decisions change the course of your life forever. May be this was one of it. And maybe it was for all good.
PS- I somehow suspect my new office colleagues want me to get diabetes. I am not used to people being sweet and kind to me especially at work place. Recently, my Japanese boss bought me some chocolates from Japan on observing the number of wrappers of Toblerone lying on my table at end of every day. I couldn’t help but think if I deserve so much of kindness especially from someone who has just known me for 4 weeks yet made so much of efforts to make me feel valued. I was short of words and just thanked him,’Domo Arigatou Gozaimasu’! 🙂