Singing a silent song……………..

PS- If you have always liked knowing the brighter side of the blogger inside me than you had better skip this post for it is dark, sorrowful and intensely emotional.

” Sometimes there is a need to put down the hour glass and observe the time fly by because in that moment of introspection actions deem to speak up for themselves………………………………”

These past few months have been really traumatizing for me. So many changes , perhaps I would have never imagined in the worst of my nightmares , have taken place that I silently want to bury away my past and want to start afresh. There have been moments when I have silently cried through nights, there have been moments when I hated myself,felt the pangs of jealousy, envied what others have,then there have been moments when I have cursed people, cursed my very own destiny and cursed almighty. It was a period of  unbound grief, cascading sorrow,shattered confidence and falsehood. But I think what kept me intact was the power of those special , life long relationship where a mother lovingly wiped away my tears silently praying to almighty for my good health and good luck, where a father silently supported me with his wisdom, where  loving  sisters always tried to bring a smile on my face assuring me that hard work will pay off one day, where a friend in the darkest of time brought back glimpses of light in my life assuring me that one day I will shine like a star, where a group of closest school buddies gave me that unimaginable strength to keep on fighting knowingly that it was an unequal battle between destiny and me. How can I forget the most important of  all , my alter ego, my soul which kept on telling me that victory is not so far.

In this moment of introspection I realized the worth of those special bonds which will always hold me tightly even when I  break down into fits of grief and sorrow. It seems that life has altogether shown me a different phase with a lesson to be remembered life long . Money, fame, power are just those few materialistic things which can never give you the strength to face the worst of all nightmares.Its those special relationship which matter the most in life because  when the soul will depart it will memorize the worth of what almighty has bestowed upon us. The worth of human relationships.

Even as I write this post I am moved and left teary eyed for the endless support my family ,my friends and my best friend have provided me in this difficult time. And above all my gratitude towards my soul for helping me to restore the connection with almighty  because of whom the living nightmare has ended, for the endless strength ,power and patience  to break away from that glass dream which was actually not my own dream. In this moment of self inspection my actions have spoken aloud that what I am heading towards now will surely bring peace, serenity and self satisfaction in life .AMEN……………………………….

Jhatpat tag!

Poonam tagged me for this jhatpat  tag :

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn on page 18 and find line 4.

Certainly it was true that a part of me hoped desperately to be adopted by Mr Tanaka after my mother died; but another part of me was very afraid (Memoirs of a Geisha).

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can & catch air?

Newspaper which I was reading five minutes back before I started doing this tag.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?

Last night I watched Jailed Abroad : Peruvian Cases on National Geographic Channel.

4. Without looking, guess what time it is?

It’s going to be 12:00 in the noon.

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?

11:44 am (Ah! I need to finish this tag by 12:00).

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

The sound of the ceiling fan and somewhere outside my balcony, I can hear the honking of cars.

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?

I stepped outside at 6:00 am this morning to attend my French class at Alliance Française de Delhi

8. Before you started this Q&As, what did you look at?

Poonam’s blog to copy the tag.

9. What are you wearing?

A red t-shirt and blue colored shorts.

10. When did you last laugh?

In the French class where people were hilariously speaking French (not to forget mixing up the genders as well).

11. What is on the walls of the room you are in?

The walls are painted in light cream color with a lamp and a tube light fixed on the wall (sorry you will never find posters on my room’s wall unlike other teenagers)

12. Seen anything weird lately?

No, not yet.

13. What do you think of this quiz?

The post’s name speaks volumes about it.

14. What is the last film you saw?

Kaminey (you can read the review I wrote in the last post).

15. If you became a multimillionaire overnight, what would you buy?

Unlimited stock of chocolates , an exotic spa exclusively for me and I might consider living  in a barsati in Delhi.

16. Tell me something about you that I dunno!

I love to write   ( a very obvious answer)

17. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?

Remove the reservation system and bring a change in the educational system of the country which will focus more on the talent and ability of the student’s rather than judging them only on basis of marks. (I want to replace the concept of Academic Quotient by Intelligence Quotient).

18. Do you like to Dance?

Yes, I have completed Inter advance level of  SDIPA( Shiamak Davar Institute of Performing Arts) .

19. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?

Thinking……………

20. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?

Still thinking…………………………………

21. Would you ever consider living abroad?

No, I want to spend my life in Delhi. It’s the perfect home for me and I think there is something about this city which holds me back, an intangible connection.

22. What do you want GOD to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?

Welcome to heaven !

Finally I tag Amit, Oorja , Kanagu and Vikas.